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1:45 PM 6/4/2016

writing notes to myself. pathetic. hahaha. hahaha. what if i go to that carnival tonight. would that be fun. just me myself and i. i could even try and make a friend. or two million people will die. what if those were the stakes, would i make a friend. so, the relieving thing would be would be to finish my resume and cover letter, long term like, that would be what would be relieving. but short term me doesnt want to do it. that seems completely sucky. and, i hate it, when i try and fail.

new thought: no new thoughts. ok you pathetic twitch. i wanted a smoke a moment ago, thinking about the carnival. ?how can i have fun if dont smoke? am i right. remember when i would instant message people. shit. that was legit. what if i went on facebook right now. is that what people go on facebook to do.

ugh, i could go to jewelry but i dont want to do that either. what if i went to church tomorrow? would that be odd. what if i went home right now and smoked some weed. then what, lay around. these days are so long. so damn long. there's a couple a few things i need to do. get a robe. get a loan. turn in my jewelery key. turn in my usb thumb drive. finish the canvas posts. i mean, fudge. this is really bad shit. really bad shit. i played basketball today, ten minutes. that wasnt bad shit. i walked rosa to the furthest dumpster, that wasn't bad shit in particular. i sat on the chair and sort of rested, even when rachel put the computer on my arm. that wasnt bad shit. i read abnormal psych. that wasnt bad shit and then i laughed maniacally and got rachel annoyed with me and that wasnt bad shit either. i played frisbee outside with rosa on leash. that definitely wasnt bad shit. i took a shaved and took a cool shower. that went fine. i took a shit, that wasn't bad shit. oh, i was thinking of starting a blogspot. how to start a blog.

and that's how you start a blog folks.

in retrospect: i am at library. it is two in the afternoon.

i played basketball. that was the precedent for coming here.

what got me up this morning? i smoked and went back to bed i think. listened to some podcast but not for long.

yes, i got up and thought about shower first. i thought about rosa walk first. but i walked around the house. stretching was first. it all began with stretching.

then i sat down on the armchair and i began to read to my fam. ch. 18 of The Prisoner of Azkaban, "Moony, Wormtail, Padfoot, and Prongs". That definitely wasn't bad shit. I decided to give Lupin an american accent this time to better differentiate his voice from the others. alot of exposition in that chapter.

rosa wanted out before i could finish the chapter so i took her for a walk.

i sat down again. rachel suggested i shower so that's what i did, a bit of a shave and a haircut as well.

i made a salad.

then i read abnormal psych mostly because i had the binder out already on the desk and i didn't feel like going to the lib and doing my real shit. and reading abnormal psychology IS real shit too, just doesn't seem like, innit.

i played frisbee in the backyard.

i read more abnormal psych. when i hit a stopping point, i thought about listening to music. rach was back in bed. but i am strong in heart and pure in spirit, i went out and

i played b-ball. shoeless.

came to the library. i started a blog. i hope you enjoy.


                                        nOw, suffice every interaction i have ever had:

Nicole drove by on her go-kart. rosa was walking dragging her leash behind while i held a basketball. nicole said: well, she's technically on leash. i was like, "biiiiiitch", but, nicole was saying it was alright, so, it's ok.