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12:31 AM 1/26/2015

i was goona smoke , but i decided t;o tkae a short walk first. i was feeling awks,twist;y,anxious, ;hyper, and but, iwalked to the laundry/lounge and then back and

about a third of the way back i astarted feeling GOOD. my spine felt healtheoer, i was taking longer strides, my torso abdomen was more upright and self sup[orted, my

back was leaning back ever so slgiht. makes me think: for the rest of the night....

smoke
take a jog
read thru cs303 book
final rough draft sum2 (retreieve it)

today: sun 1/25 at noon:thirty - my mom emailed stephanie this:
Hi Stephanie,

Congratulations on your recent wedding!  I checked with Tobias and Rachel -- they are available on Tues.and Thurs. after 12:30.  The end of Feb. or early March would

be fine.  I did receive your e-mail regarding the tasting.

Please e-mail us a few dates and times that would work for you.

Thank you,Melissa Brooks

12:38 AM 1/26/2015
 ught, i didnt email the corrections to my rough draft to myself--i'm sure i saved it onto my cs302 user in the misc. folder... but i dont need the latest and

greatest...i have my draft and i drew an arrow to the part where i will insert the last 2-3 para's of "divide and conquer" @HOO!!!!

1:15 AM 1/26/2015
 thirty-eight mins later: i went from a stroll ,,,i went on a stroll to idaho & ellington. on the first tenth of the way back my spine started breathing easier.

 i was leaning forward slightly. i felt more at balanced with my feet when i propositioned my body leaning more forwards. it felt like my torso was more balanced ontop

of my waist and pelvis that way, when i'm leant a bit more forward.

should i do a run through of the book on tape so far of : a changed man. how he took an elevator up to the 19th floor to go give pertinent info about planned attacks

from ARM (a neo-nazi terror group). He wants to see...maslow,,,dwyer... at "brotherhood watch" and this former neo-nazi, Nolan, is carrying a big duffel bag,,long

sleeves to cover swastica tattoos, and he is freaking out the asian receptionist babe...but, on the elevator ride up,, a tanned, buff, Dwarf, surfer-dude enters the

elevator ...and nolan confronts his hateful frame of mind,,,thinking of dwarf dude as a mutant...but then tryin;g to empathize...like what was dwarfs first day of

kindergarten like and also, what was it like for him to ask someon to the prom.

1:21 AM 1/26/2015 1:26 AM 1/26/2015 five mins ;ater:: ugh, i feel orne: i got out divid and conquier essay out, and the article itself, and i said/realized...

well, im going t;o read through the 3 pages that i've written, and then i'll write in...then ill write in the last 2=3 paragrpahsp. but,,,then i feltish orne and leant

back in my chair and exhalled deeply but tehn turned to this notepad and began feverishly typing a play by play of hte last few seconds. yup. 1:29 AM 1/26/2015

1:45 AM 1/26/2015
 25 minslater: listening to frou frou let go. and i wanted to write down/keep record of what has been ..for the last two weeks my discouragement. it's

been..shaming kinda. also like: you don't want to be doing this// you don't want to do this. and: what sammi said..the unforseen consequences...and ... what else, how

it can morph into other issues and aspects of your life... and... and i guess how- want begotes want // want begits want. -how doing it in tern only re-inforces the

behavior. MIERTE. MI-ARDA! !)(!
      ____

1:48 AM 1/26/2015   

superbowl ocmmer: headin to halftime: the nasty what now?

1:54 AM 1/26/2015 hey, i could rest while sitting here/rockign my head listening to details(2002) by FrouFrou. and., ,smomke, and wlak,...and then come bakc adn

do that reast stuff,,,finish roughdraft, read and record 302 text...yeup. can't help but love you now. is this it, this it? no-ah-o-ah-oh-ah-aa. hello? yes, we're

back, and what was the question? i'm high enough from all the waiting to ride a wave on your inhaling. dah-doo-dum-day. dah-doo-dum-day. cuz i love your more. can't

help but love you more.! Yayayayayayayayaya ayayayay du;oadomaoa dhahdodamo gf dahadomdo daodghoasddoskf asdokfasdgjiasdkfkdsa apasdppasdifasdifpdsafi a

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2:14 AM 1/26/2015 i smomked and i... took a walk, i walked on the other side of the street- past the cornerstore and on to the start of the baseball/other fields...

and turned back. i might take .5. i t;ook one at 9;25 pm (21:25). i took one at 10;00. and one at...14;\30--b4 i went to the lib to study at math. ...
 now one at 2;20 am.

i will miss how much water i (nervously) drink when i am ?switched to ?straterra? ? hmmm;

2:31 AM 1/26/2015 OH> SUM2 work heay.! i inserted where i;m gonna insert and what... and i went to the first para and tried to tack in a thesis about how it was

comendable that nicely set up safeguards for his experiment and double/triple checked.

2:49 AM 1/26/2015 i smoked some, paced around, and then i sat down here to type something , a comment i wanted to make a note of...it was someting.... s oh

yeha, how i dont want to sue the printer---i;ll test it out/make sure it works--prknt out apicture somehting... and... but dont' pre-- print . when it happens, it

happens; but in the means. means beans.

2:55 AM 1/26/2015 im listening thru audios. 48/56 'im the loco one of this group'

       
AnDRE! --im looking fro my boyfrined...i need to write out that sketch and remember it, accent it! 3:06 AM 1/26/2015

3:10 AM 1/26/2015
 track 26 i gotta go back and listen to. its 24 mins. jeez. and maybe i'll make a table of contents here of it's contents.
contents:
1)babycakes

2)prof.brothers blind date

3)'im a cockney woof''ican train you to be a boxer...".0;46

4)soup song. mighty boosh.

5)'ice flow/nowhere to go...'

6)'i hate jazz' mighty boosh.

7)'noel's story: one time he left me with jahooli the leopard...he would take me out hunting gazelle" "youou shoululud nevverrr skeeeeppp... this the monkey king wants

a man's face!" 2;19

8)little britian, yeah but no but yeah. 0;44

9)relaz energy light. 5;11

10)warrior 2

11)side angle stretch

12)might pose

13)warrior 1

14)triangle pose

15)victorious breath yoga from tracks 9-15 (7trackx)

16)the mythological hero. 22;25

17)prof brothers, film lecture.2;37

18)prof brothers,magic of cinema. 2;36

19)prof brothers, jesus. 3;36

20)wizard ppl, dear reader

21)wizard ppl, dear reader

22)wizard ppl, dear reader [[prof bros and wizzard ppl from 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22]](sixTracks)

23)derrenbrown..'we often settle... misconceptions about confidence..." 1;00

24)MILLY ON TAPE!!! 0;21

25) milly tape:! 1;43

X 26)24 min voice memo.  X  deleted, meaning: Kevin call is at 26 and Jake Halo story at 27. 9 min calc problem at 28. 29 30 31 end of calc. 32- a rap.  33- jay z 

34, 35, 36- derrenBrown infamous next six until 44 (37-44) is KEY*PEELE. yup. maybe go back and listen to 23...read aloud cs302 p 402. ...finish writing rough

draft sum 2. oh boy.

27)phone call to kevin! 2;25

28)!!JAKE tellng HALO!! @ momo: 1;50 -"but it was an explosion. it was an implosion." 2;20 "it ripped apart and opened up like the sea" :) 3;47"however! there was

a man named sgt. johnson... ...whoooo is a sergeant. on the core de' honor. .... ... and he was actually... taken by the plug. but was not infected by the flood."lol  

 4;35 plasma grenades  5;10"but he's still hostage? NO, he isn't anymore."into Halo 2...  6;00"if you know keep your moujth shut but if you dont, guess"

earth? "You knew..but yes, it was Earth" LOL a mills, i like how he said.. earth?? You know but bingo! lol. uh....Earth? ..You know, but bingo! that is ac;utally cool

and i like it.  6;40 glitches   8;00"what the arbor does, is the arbor sends them on suicidal missions that need to be accomplished..." tot.time: 29;00

"" "" ""!!

29)"so really, whats going on in my life" song. -im doing my psych to get an aa at highline.. next year, september, i dont know what i'll be doing. will i work at

kalsman this summer, idk? - im no all star. and i dont know if i could be, idont know if want to be. id have to develope a hella lot fo enthusiasm...in hte next 12

months--No! in the next 9 months.. i wanna be able to laugh like shamar, make other ppl laugh...should i have more enthusiasm. ?laugh how other ppl laough? babbling at

1;38 am i driving?   2;06 girls dancing to the beatles ;;cut;;  0;40 foreign singing 0;50 dingaling a ling [[[as track 28: DELETED@!!!!]]]

28) beatboxing.. honkey, screeching, loud,close whistling into the mic. 1;20 OH, I HONKED AT DEVON AND NOW HE"S ASKING IF RANDALL AND I CAME BQCK. Randall- we picked

up stuff from Rufu's and brought it to his new house in Seattle. ::I leave the mic in the car and walk off. i hear cars passing and planes overhead...its kinda good as

just background noice! fforward from two minutes to....forty eight minutes o.O still, i hear no talking...i hear some birds,,,, a stream, distant airplane, airplane

roar gets closer yet more omnipotent.... 1;15;00 still nothing...yet when i fast forward i hear definite changes in volume and industrial techno house oscillating

blurbs.... its at 1;21;44 (soon i will cut off the first two minutes...))) and a car passes on the road behind.... 1;26;14 a dog barking in the distance, echoing.

continuing....the suburbs had mucccchhchchch more noise and environmental noise then eburg its startling?!?!?!?! huup. youp. yup. startling. OH! Devon was supposed to

help rRandall move but he drank a full bottle of ...scotch of rufus'- unbenknownst to randall. ran jsut said,,,devon had a little bit of my beerr and then...it was so

weird...he just got really really drunk...to drunk to lift boxes or anything and then he wandered off to walk to the blue house. at that point, later in the day,

randall called me seeing if i could help him transport his boxes to Seattle. Whooo, crazy times, crazy times. 1;23;20 and add two. devon and i hung out for one hour

and 25 minutes. ...around that time.... i think that summer randall had been using while living in cali...thats why he got such a deep dark f;ucking blackfoot tan...to

hid the marks --so he said when he came clean about the more dangerous items on his recreational drug list... jeezz. and then,,, probably ,,,, or, lets say ...well,

the first year ran went to UW i think he commuted from home in federal way. the next year, he got a place with roommates he didn't know but became friends with and he

stayed there two plus years.... like, year one. year two i think he introduced herione into the house cuz after ran od'd, rufus went to pick his stuff up from his

house, and his roommates were like...'whats happening,,are you picking up his stuff cuz he's moving out early? (going to graduate in just one week with a bachelors in

psych..he'd even worked on doing research on giving participants alchohol and having them read stuff and do an inventory) "Randy died. He od'd." ::Gasps:: Rufus

continues: "Do you guy's use that shit?!" .."...yeah, sometimes." so that's why i think ran introduced it thru todd and/or trevor or ...uh, chris at one point until he

decided to clean up his act, move away from bad influences, and moved off to florida...that was after he broke off his ltr with Todd's !sister! ..uh, what's her face,

ah! Marky. Markie. yeah. Chris moved to florida...actually, his whole family did, yeah, but he came back for his funeral. Chris is a raelly stand up guy. I like him

alot. Yup. so that was life... if it was, Randall's 2nd year at UW... and he did...two or three years at GRCC.... hmmmm....

30) cont) it's long. 90 minutes! 1;28;14 IN TOTAL! JEEZ@!! X

310)calculus story problem about the barn and the width of the fence. X

31)calc  X

32)calc  X

33)calc  X volume of prism : width times lenght times height. the length of each side originally is : 16 inches by 10 inches.. but when you cut out

squares from the corners its minus 2x.... so it equals: 14 by 8 inches ??? the volume is ... x more htan zero less than five.just becuasse. multiply that rpoble so v =

x 160 fifty two x plus four x squared. v equals four x cubed... v prime equals 12x squared minus one o four x ....blah blah

34)calc  X 

36)calc  X X X {{5:41 AM 1/26/2015}}

36)calc (the derivate of tan inverse x) arc sine x. by definition we have.... idk...absolute value of y is less that positve or negative PI over two. PI/2. oy....

total time: nine minutes and five seconds 9;05  

38)calc (differentiate and simplify) 4;02    TRACKS 30 thru 33 ARE ALL CALC PROBLEMS! WHOOP!>(IOP  (4 tracks of MATH)

38)calc (mean value theorem) 6;40

40)calc (proof of one) 8;18 10 math tracks. 9 mAth trackds. 8 7 

40) rap. friiiday, w/ sam. 1;17  jimmy crack corn and ensure that i meet a bleet deplete. eat at a pita pit aint gonna pop a zit, gryffindor thru the open door

slytherin at no power, climb a tower of terror,,,ain't gonna be no wire nose terrier...everyday, hey. (BRAVO!)

41)jay-z. h ot the izzo

42)derrenbrown hypon. 7;45

43)derrenBrown.0;19

44)derrenBrown.0;43

45)0;40 39) i played derren browns thing. i put eggs on the stove. i put on potatoes and my 'miners' cheeseburger and i put on a lid and broiled it and it was delish!

:P then im gonna eat, and then imma gonna do some essay. and then, im gonna smoke. the end  X

47)0;18 its eight eleven am. i put on some tea trea oil chapstik, im going to boil half the pack of pigs feet for rosa...this mustve been sundayNight/mondayMorn.

hwoop. its one week later...no, that was actually on...mondayNight/TueMorn cuz MLKJr day.   X

48)39) ?ANDRE WHERE R U?2;48d

49)fox news pundit argument

50)crazy ppl in isis jimmin up my jammer. 0;42

51)?ANDRE WHERE R U?

52)"we need a crazy vato like you in our gang" --"Who he? ..What he did?"

53)"i went to see an army recruiter" 0;49  [[Six Tracks of Key/Peele!]]   [[then,,,,FIVE tracks on cs302!!!! YWEAH!!!!!]]

president of Jordan on the Daily SHow, wikipedia him, etc... 3:31 AM 1/26/2015 im on 29 of 52.

3:59 AM 1/26/2015FINISHED TABLE OF CONTENTS AUDIO YIPPEEE! NOW I GOTTA PEEE>>>>>>! AND ITS FOUR AM! (.5 at fourTwent:?)

4:13 AM 1/26/2015 PSYch today mgzn. p 63: smoothe encounters. p 52: TOUCH ..amazing enough. it had 0 content. i guess that's a good thing. a great thing

too.

4:18 AM 1/26/2015  i dont even want to start with that. i'm not even gonna start it.  4:19 AM 1/26/2015 .5

4:20 AM 1/26/2015 smoked.
4:31 AM 1/26/2015
 what makes staying up thru hte night difficult is that i am so sensitive..so there's only one counter i can do which is -- take a walk and/or jog! !)

4:32 AM 1/26/2015 i think ill take a walkie tho. listen to shaggy...or, find new song. shaggy song is at : 173/374

4:34 AM 1/26/2015  iaght! im going to lsiten to track twenty;Six while i walk. yup. but ill sit here for jsut a momo. aight?!4:35 AM 1/26/2015

track 26: 'iwas going to go for awalk but istarted to feel my tensions so i went out the back door and ?put away the darts?, picked up the stone pidgeon=-felt it in my

hands, found where dad wanted me to dig, then i went to where the truck and saw that i couldnt hide there so i walked thru the front down and i sat down facing the

spencers house, then i went to my car, grabbed the pipe, smoked on the side of the house, then i sat on the ladder and waited, until the time i decided to come back

inside, and back then- when i went in - i probably expected to be back again, around this time.

 im working with iggy. i tend to focus on the negative-what doesn't engage iggy.  

childhood development class. observation number 2. prepare the movie thing. bag of tricks. i missed dscussion 5- what is effecting childreen cognitively--cuz i did

work on it... ive been up for less than four, no, three hours today! and i have tomorrow to do all this. there's no fucking way. im going to fial. i don't picutre

myself failing, but i gotta connect the two. cuz i cnat do all this work.

9;23" : of 13;59.  ask iggy's mom. maybe even do it as group thing so i can be there at play time. play if off as a guessing game, one that iggy only guesses, the

next one they can all guess. so i think i should do a pretest first. if taht doesnt work, the hopefully i ll make up it. ...lots of garbling, blurred workds slurred

words... gonna try to run it and try to elicite respones from iggy but i want to write a full report, 2pgs, put down some stuff for observation and the other half

just: analysis. putting key words into my summary. saying like : this ...blahblahblah... concrete operational. past the terturiary/ circular reacitions/ and into

conservation substage three or four or five. the test for 79...ten and up do pendulum test. go to walmart and buy fishing wire, wieghts, and add them together, bring

it in a plastic bag, but, ask what im going to do the day before and then prepare it,,,, mom is home and looking at me, so what(i was in the backyard) aight, i can

erase track 27 now. track 26 is:

26:

this is a full life. and im just...going to blockbuster. my car. quiznos. mcdonalds. blockbuster. blockbuster. ...to nautilus. to ...highline... .... ....anddd, ...kve

been ...welll..... iv'e been doing.....how do i put this........ for ...for ..over....like. ((((((aight imma errase this one too!)))

5:04 AM 1/26/2015\

now track 26 is KEVIN CALL i gotta turn it uP!!! ...clothes on floor? huh? clothes on floor??? ...no, under the bed. "you did what with the bed?" Yeah. ".... something

somethnig " OH, cuz you're vacuuming! Do you like vacumming. yeah. i do it every day. "I dont think anyone has school today so she's probably doing something else

(CAROL?)  "Thsnk you, Toby" "No problem, man!" ....byes..... 2;07 kevin: "hey! ..if you finish ?this? give me a call, ok?" Ok. Thank you. Adios..amigo. "Adios Amigo"

aight. "ok, bye."  lol, that's a keeper

27) Jake story

28) whats going on in my life song...

5:53 AM 1/26/2015
 i deleted nine tracks from track 26 to 53 (now at 44)

maybe go back and listen to 23...read aloud cs302 p 402. ...finish writing rough draft sum 2. oh boy.
5:59 AM 1/26/2015

7:01 AM 1/26/2015 OY! ONE HOUR OF WORK ON TYPING IN STRAIGHT COPYING FROM THE ARTICLE(The parts i dhadnt yet mentioned) and filling it verbatim into my "divide

andconquer... at the end of  the intro para & insterted in at the 2nd (and last -- after a long para on prime number history) para of the 2nd page....and it goes

until...dun dun dun ...PAGE FIVE. 2 para's down.. the third para i wrote in the past. it is old now. and my original writings fill out the rest of the last page six.

WHOO! so.... i had prior written 1 page and a half and then one and one third of the end.... that's three pages... and i copied in three pages... .welll, many of that

stuff i will cut.,,, and other stuff i've gotta re-write in my own words....not so hard! but perchance i should take a small break first... its seven o six am.... it

does not look lighted at all yet outside but the curtains closed (should i open)

 there is breakfast to eat...there's actually chicken and quartered roast potatoes that have been sitting in the oven overnight, that will make a beautiful

breakfast...

my back is kinda stooped here at this desk madly typing this...droopped but not to painful altho my necks kinda ...going numb.... so ....

1. work an extra one more half an hour on this article summary---email it to myself...finish it tommorrow after math tommorrow....

2. turn on the oven and warm up my bfast in a bit...

3. go out and smoke....walk around and chilllaxxx....listen to audio recorder??? maybe.... music , probably...

4. speak some pages and things from 302 into the audio recorder...

5. finish 2.6 math hw. read on to 2.7.

7:10 AM 1/26/2015

7:19 AM 1/26/2015 it is morning and it has been another insomnia night. (sunday night, monday morning, start of school week) ---I would say this insomnia night was

different then the ...last two at least... and different then any other i've had before MIND YOU@ yes, because,,, i didn't go out in my car (to keep myself 'busy')

really). No. i studied at the library until midnight.. then i came home... and, well, i took overall, three walks, or four...im going to take another soon... i

listened through my audios, i paced, i worked on my rough draft.... i wrote, journaled quite a bit on this notepad about bullshit or whatever...so yeah, that was the

flavor of this insomnia evening of 1/25-26...

23 minutes left on heating up the bfast italian chickens and taters. short walk, i will take... or ,,, wait until the oven counts down to ... fifteen, so in eight

minutes and then turn the oven off and then turn the timer off and then go off for a walk, probably a short one but unconstrained...maybe smoke another additional jay

in the meantime.... if i .5 at 2;20, 4;20, and right now its four minutes past 7;20, should i at 8;20? maybe. maybe in fifteen m;inutes at seven forty but, no, i dont

think so...whoa, rachel was doing a long snorry snore. waiting for the time on the oven to go down and im not quite ready to sit down and eat breakfast so im turning

off the oven and going for a little spin. 7:26 AM 1/26/2015

7:42 AM 1/26/2015  took a smoke, turned off oven, took a short walk down the steps around, back up.. then i sang shaggy- it wasnt me karoake.... now,,, i think ill take my b-fast out of the oven. No? too soon? hmmmm, if rose was up we could do a rose walk.. i could rest to some melodies for a few... i gotta get hooked up with my laptop tho.... what do i want to here... uh, i could go to ..not alltrapmusic...but what else is there. let me look: trap channel

8:51 AM 1/26/2015 aight. i took rosa out for a walk on john wayne trail on this foggy morning, baked myself up some leftover italian chicken and pototoes for breakfast. ....;stupid alrarm on ipod radio went off! ,,, well, im gonna email this stuff to myself and then i am pretty much audi fivethous! so ill get to boull about nine forty. cool.:_O{