notes freom William james

Henry believed that GOd is incarnated ina ll of humankind; that the "fall" is not a fundamental part of the human condition, as it was for Calvin, but rather a result of individual egotism; and that human wellbeing lies in giving up egotistic pursuits by joining God's work of perfecting creation through liberating the natural divinity and goodness of human beings. SUrely a worthless hour of life when measured by the usual standards of commercial value. Yet in what other kind of value can the preciousness of any hour, made precious by any standard, consist, if it consist not in fellings of excited significance like these, engendered in someon by what the hour cokntains? Yet so blind and dead does the clamor of our own practical interests make us to all other things, that it seems almost as if it were necessary to become worthless as a practical being, if one is to hope to attain to any breadth of insight into the impersonal world of worths as such, to have any percepiton of life's meaning on a large objective scale. ONly your mystic, your dreamer, or your insolvent tramp or loafer, can afford so sympathetic an occupation, an occupation which will change the usual standards of human values in the wirnkling of an eye, giving to foolishness a place ahead of power, and laying loww in a minute the distinctions which it takes a hardworking conventional man a lifetime to build up. Walt Whitman,as he crosses brooklyn ferry: this is what he feels; Flood-tide below me! I watch you face to face; Clouds of the west? sun there half an hour high! I see you als face to face. Crowds of men and women attired in the usual costumes! how curious you are to me! On the ferry-boats, the hundred and hundreds that cross, returning home, are more curious to me than you suppose; ffffff And you that shall cross from shore to shore years hence, are more to me, and more in my meditations, that you might suppose. Others will enter the gates of the ferry, and cross from shore to shore; Others will watch the run of the flood-tide; Others will see the shipping of Manhattan north and west, and the heights of Brooklyn to the south and east; Others will see the islands large and small; Fifty years hence, others will see them as they cross, then sun half an hour high; A hundred years hence, or ever so many hundred yearss hence, others will see them, WIll enjoy the sunset, the pouring in of the flood-tide, the falling back to the seas of the ebb-tide. It avails not, neither time or place- disntance avails not; Jist as you feel when you look on the river and sky, so i felt; Just as nay .... yada yada yada... These, an all else, were to me the same as they are to you.

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4:13 PM Sunday, July 17, 2016 (PDT) Time in Ellensburg, WA SUNDAY (interior) LIBRARY Drank ten and a half beers this weekend. Wayne forbid it< SAT) Day two but i drank in the morning, and at night. it was morning walks with Knightley all three days. Sharon and Darl came. First day, Fri, was Sue's birthday. We all went to Rimrock. Next day we ate breakfast with grandparents, then we went to the car show, then i went home and put on Reba, then i napped till five, and then we started cleaning up Rachels room. And then we had dinner, and then I went to Basin Summer Sounds with Rosa. Then I came home and continued to help Rachel clean her room. And then we went back out; rach, lee, sue, i to say the "Raylins" at Basin Summer SOunds. Next day, Sun, morning walk. Then i did have a smoke and beer even though it was Sun before church. Went to church early, decided I'd do Childrens Church. Did worship with the drum, and we did acapella Jesus music at the end. I taught out of the book of Micah and started with asking what Cole and Chris wanted to pray for. For example, I myself said that I pray I get through this math class well, that we move to the right place in Yakima, where God has his plan for us, and for continued focus on what i want to do. After church we went to Agave, I got us to go there and got us to sit outside. After that, uh, Rach and I headed home, she let me smoke in the car twice which was awesome. I had her drop me off at the lib and I started studying math. I called Prof Stein about starting the test early tomorrow. I read through chapter 7.6. I have a few more HW from that section but my problem is is that I'm mostly finding out how to do it from the back. So, yeah, i got distracted, I picked up a Cosmo and brought it to the bathroom. I tried to wank, it was feeling pretty good, but this Zoloft has really put a stopper on my penis.

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